KiLL Me SoFtLy...

I called her just now... (her:My dear lovely cousin)... Mle2 ingt nk dgr hot story die, since dh lme x jmpe... but it the end of conversation, I feel sucks... very3 sucks...

Her : Weyh, ko tw x nape td ko call aq, aq tgh ade kt hospital ckp emergency?

Hana : Huh, nape? story ar..

Her : Aq td gi check kt pakar, aq ade ketumbuhan..

Hana : Weyh, btul ker? .............. Weyh, seryes aq isau giler niyh..

Then die story2 bout the other things yg aq pn dh x amek port dh ape die ckp.. sore epi jer, cm xde mslh... time tu mmg dh meleleh dh air mata... tp aq pretending wat suare hepi so die x dengar suare nangis aq... cover...

Hana : Weyh, aq isau giler niyh, seryes... Aq syg kt ko...

Her : Weyh, apsal plak ko nk syg kt aq, aq pompuan, bkn lelaki... (sempat plak die wat lawak time2 cmni)

Hana : Otak ko, aq syg ko sbg seorang cousin je la...

Her : Ooo... haha...

Hana : Eh, weyh, aq chow dlu ea... aq de keje sket... bye... (sbnrnye aq dh tak tahan ag dh nak cover suara)... takut obvious n takut die prasan plak...

After ended the conversation... Trus melalak... (menangis tersedu2)... Moe (rum8 ku) tnye nape... aq story ar kt die... hmm, i feel sucks... realy2 sucks...

P/s :

1. Sumbody plz kill me...
2. Nape sume org yg aq syg nk tgglkan aq? Why? Nape aq slalu sedih, nape aq x slalu gembira cm org len?
3. Is that my destiny to be alone 4eva...?
4. I want to replace myself wif my late bro... he deserve to live, mummy loves u n miss u, not me... (mummy loves me too but i think she loves him more than me)
5. Aq nk g Benteng, the last place where my parents n lil sis n lil bro lepak b4 they get the news of my late bro's dead...

I'm useless, sucks... I dun deserve to born in this world, the world is too cruel...